I am one of those people that occasionally just blogs for the sake of committing words to “paper” and getting stuff off of my chest. In that spirit, I’m going to talk about one of my odd days. For anyone that I haven’t subjected to stories of my love life (you must live on the east coast or in SF), there is a running theme of masochism (before you start, no, not like that) in the way that I put myself in positions that I know I’m not going to enjoy. For instance, I decided to email a woman that I parted ways with that had expressed what appeared to be a genuine interest in remaining friends (I’ve foolishly done this enough by now to know better), and I received the followup email that invariably contains a line something like “oh, and by the way, I’m seeing someone exclusively right now”. After 2 or 3 of these emails, you’d think I’d have learned my lesson. Anyway, I also went speed dating Sunday night (post to follow) and through some scheduling problems of the company running it, there were only 2 women under 30 there which led to an email today that contained no matches (it was actually a kind of funny experience all in all, which warrants its own entry).
All of this combined to make it an odd day. As I was looking through some photo blogs for the San Diego Comic Con, I decided to look for photos of an event that a friend of mine (a female friend, of course) was at. It turns out if you know enough about a person and an event, there is probably a photo blog somewhere. After a trip to google and a look through some random web sites, I found the sort of page I was looking for and suddenly encountered a picture of her and her boyfriend. It was at this point that the thought leapt into my head that “oh shit, I’m a stalker”. It is a weird feeling to know that some combination of someone else’s actions and your feelings has come to that. For some reason, I seem to occasionally require experiences like this to realize that some “friendships” are just plain unhealthy.